The 'I love you'

I feel like I'm trapped in a romance novel... this is so cheesy. Please excuse this sappy entry I think I must be under the influence of something to feel like writing about all this lovey dovey stuff...yuck! Zack surprised me by coming home for a whole week. We have had a great time so far and have just been enjoying relaxing in the country atmosphere. I can't quit feeling like I want to tell him how I feel but I always preferred the man to go first... I mean why should I feel stupid...lol. Well the cutest scene out of this entire chick flick happened. We took one of the four wheelers out riding on his land and he took me to a cute little area with a creek and large oaks in the background. It was such a gorgeous day and we just layed together on the four wheeler talking about old memories of high school for 2 hours. When we went to leave becuz he had to get back to the house to get ready to go back to Va, he turned around as he was cranking it up and whispered in my ear "you know I really do love you right"? Of course I couldn't help but blush and finally say 'I love you too'...ok ok hold all barfs for after the entry please. It has been a great week and I love this puppy love feeling especially with someone who has been my best friend for almost 3 yrs now. I never would have imagined us ending up like this, but I think I like it!

So far...

Ok, so for a while now I've been confused and honestly considering the fact that there must be something wrong with me. Zack has yet to kiss me or make an advance towards having sex.. I mean what are we 15 again?!? For christ's sake we are both 20 yrs old what does it take for a girl to at least get a kiss around here?!? I mean he has been the sweetest and most considerate guy I've ever been around considering my guard has been on higher alert than the bombing on September 11th and I've been very distant with him. I went to go visit him in Virginia Beach the other weekend and he was too cute. He had a Navy hoodie, a bottle of wine, and a sweet note on the coffee table for me when I got up there before he got home from work. The entire weekend was great, but I was sure sleeping in the same bed with him would definitely provoke at least a kiss...nope just cuddling like I was a little cute fluffy teddybear. Now he has been home a couple of weekends now with no action what so ever just sweet outings. Fortunately all of my questions were answered this past weekend when he stayed over. It just kinda finally happened like something out of a chick flick... we were watching a movie and he just grabbed my chin and kissed me then one thing led to another. Of course I had to ruin the moment afterwards and ask "what the hell took you so long"...lol... his response was the cutest ever..."well I just didn't want you to think that was all I wanted from you. I wanted a real relationship this time". I know, I know 'awwwww' right? but I couldn't help but laugh becuz it was something out of a teen movie. It had been a month and damn it I was getting frustrated waiting this long...so what if that makes me sound like a fast nympho but I have needs too damn it! lol

Our History

Maybe I should give ya alittle background on our previous history together for all the nosy yet sappy hopeless romantics out there that will love to consider our future to be fate (I just consider it to be a bit stalkerish..lol jk)....

He is in the Navy and lives in Virginia Beach, Va and we go back almost 3 yrs ago when we were in high school. He was the new kid our senior year so obviously this made him the shiny new toy to all the girls in the class of 2006. We met through a mutual friend who played with him on the football team. I know, I know classic football player meets cheerleader couple, but lets not make this a cheesy imitation of Grease. He hung out and 'talked' for a few weeks before we went back to our crazy ex's and went our seperate ways. I graduated high school and went to college and he stayed in town until he went into the military. The weird thing about our friendship is he aways kept up with me and ran into me everytime I came home from college on the weekends. We would catch up and he even came to visit me at college my freshman year in exchange for my presence at one of his many parties. Our previous attraction randomly came back when I came home for Christmas break '06 and we went deer hunting and out to eat pizza with his friends. He was kinda cute how he bundled me up with layers of clothes so I wouldn't get cold and inconspicuously paid for our pizza and started introducing me to his friends and filling them in on our history together. We planned on hanging out again the next day, but his daughter, Carson, was born so he had to call and cancel. We ran into each other when I came home on the weekends the next semester until he left for the Navy. We hung out again thanksgiving '07 right before he was to deploy, where we hung out and drank the night away at my house and rekindled our attraction for each other. I got emails from him over his deployment and throughout the summer of '08 wanting me to come visit him in Virginia Beach; however, I had a serious bf at the time and decided against it although I really missed my best friend. And now the same weekend I am moving home from college and away from all the pain from the events of this year, he happens to call me about being home this very weekend. How does he always pick the right times to come back into my life? I guess we'll just see how this turns out...

Our Beginning!

Wow, tonight has definitely been an interesting night! One of my close friends, Zack Kelly, came into town for the weekend on the same weekend I am moving back home from college. How does he always know when to call me or when to just 'be in town'? We met up at Northeastern Technical College at 12am and hung out in his truck catching up on each other's lives for almost 3 hours listening to country music like we use to in high school. He must have known that those very nights were the ones that meant the most to me back then; just sitting in random places doing absolutely nothing but talking about everything and listening to country music. He said the weirdest thing to me though that he would normally never joke about... I told him about going to be an officer in the army and he joked that we should get married since we are such best friends and of course cuz I would be making a shit load of money...but for some reason the look in his eyes just made it seem so weird to me. It bugged me the rest of the night...maybe becuz the rest of the night consisted of us laying the backseat down in my Kia and cuddling next to each other listening to country music, talking, and looking up at the stars... once again not something I expected from my best friend. We ended the night saying goodbye and promising to hang out more that weekend or so I thought that was the end of the night. That irritating voice in the back of my head told me to call and ask him about his actions that night which in turn led to him confessing his feelings for me and his interest in us trying a relationship together. This was very weird and caught me way off guard but once again that irritating voice told me "bitch you've always liked the boy just go for it", although I had completely sworn off the male race after my previous relationship with the biggest asshole on the face of this earth. So like always I listened...